This is what happen when I'm high on typing. Haha. So yeah, I'm finally gonna be eighteen this year. Like finally legal. Yeeeeeeha! I can finally legally watch all those 18+ movies, go to clubs or buy drinks. Not that I'm dying to do all of that, it's just nice to actually be legal to do all those stuff. But, the number one thing I'm most excited is donating blood. Weird isn't it? This was what actually came to my mind like the thing I really want to do when I'm finally eighteen. I want to actually be doing something that will save people lives. Rather than me being all guilty not giving anything to human race. I'm finally able to donate my blood. TEEHEE.

And weird things are happening now. It's like high school but worse? Ugh. I hate this feelings. And I just can't tell them upfront about it. I'm really sorry. But I just can't help it.

And maybe, just maybe, I'm really not good at actually letting people into my life. There are empty spots left behind but I don't have the urge to fill those with more awesome people who might actually care about me. I'm just not ready.

There are really lots of things I still want to say. But I guess I should stop here? And I've been re-watching movies and re-reading lyrics that I read or watched last time when I still did not actually understand all the feelings behind it. Now that I finally kind of grow up and understand those, just wow, some real deep feelings are conveyed there.

Anyway, night world. Have a sweet dream.

*I dreamt Kyu last night. TEEHEE.