Sometimes I'm just really sad. For no reason. Then I will think about life. Then get even sadder. Then I will think more and more about my life specifically, then I will be super sad. Funny eh? I just don't get it. Sometimes, I think I really need someone to just gave me a hug and said 'you got a pretty awesome life you know? Live it!'. I just feel i need to go for counselling, but that will be super weird if I cried in front of her without her saying anything yet. I need shoulders to cry on. I need a good adviser who is just like my mom. I just really need some words of motivation. In need of motivation and inspiration. Like seriously. I am supposed to have no time typing these down, I really have lots of homework to do. When I think again, then I get sad again. Weird is weird. Period
And I'm just super emotional person. Like really really seriously. I cried watching advertisement. I cried watching movies. I cried watching drama. I cried when have flashback at how easy things were. I cried when I think of those memories. I cried when someone encourage me. I can cry even when someone just do something as simple as advising me. I cried at pretty much anything. When did I get so emotional? I remember I was the cold-hearted one. What's is wrong? Then now I'm sad again. I really think I made a wrong choice. Wait, a lot of wrong choices for the past 5 years. I know it's not too late to change some of it now, but will the changes make things better? I have no idea.
Who agreed WTF stands for Where's The Food?
I never really understand how annoying is it when someone keeps repeating the f word - not food, the one with vowel u and consonant f,c,k. Then make a decent English word. - until recently. There was this one guy who keeps shouted and used that word way too much. Please, you are not in your private room, that's public.
I should really start doing all those homeworks before they even pile higher. Procrastinator's life. Sucks. And I guess no one really cares.
I really need to understand more Chinese though. Can't lie that sometimes I really feel that I'm left out. And when I ask anyone to translate it again, it will too much. I know they are tired too of explaining stuff that I don't understand. Can't help it. I'm not a fast learner anymore and my dialect sounds funny. Like really off and funny. Oh life. Can you be less tough on me? It's just that it's quite hectic now. Slow down.

Heck,if two people are meant to be together, they will somehow find their way back to each other. It's the same with how two people who are meant to be together, will somehow end up together. Even if it never cross their mind that they will meet someone from across the globe and fell in love with them. So, since it's pretty clear that he and I are not, can I beg you God to please, just let me meet my 'the one'?

YOU DIDN'T! How is it possible for someone to be fooled twice?! I don't want to use your special freaking gems! Twice. Gone my 100k gold. #sadday
edit : shoot! it's actually BLITZ. zzz

You. Still you. And you.