You know sometimes some things just kinda snapped inside you and you just realised things. Then you just realised how foolish you have been? I do however think that I have written something like this before. There is this cycle I also go through again and again. Realisation - what ifs - why not - foolish things- realisation again. So yeah.
Your game. Not mine. Don't even want to have any part of it.
Your loss not mine. I have to start valuing myself more.