Cause I just don't do things halfheartedly. I tend to give my all. Even though I tell myself not to fall too hard, not to go back to the same state again. my heart and my brain just refuse to cooperate together. I'm so pissed at both of them! I warned you, but honestly it was more for myself. For me to remember not to invest too much. But as usual, I'm the one who got into it too deep. Alone :/ Why can't I listen to my own warning I don't blame anyone though. I even foresee this coming LOL I was like 'oi oi oi that's more for yourself. you are always the one who got hyped up and everything.' Until then I guess? :/ I don't even know what to feel. Or what to do :/
maybe because i'm young,
but marriage for love seems impossible to me now.
I hate it but at the same time, I am the one who's putting myself in this position.
I tried to avoid it altogether too.
I am just a coward -.-