I'm having problems sleeping. Well, not the first time but still annoying. I just really want to sleep. Period. Ugh. Then I'll wake up late and then get scolding. Ugh. So many things running through my head now. I can't even. Ugh. I need to eliminate some of them but unsure on how to approach those. And I don't know is it about him or just me being insecure. So many things. So messed up. Yet I chose to run away. To put it behind me. Sometimes I just want to disappear. I could go away for like a week without the need to tell anyone where I am or how I am. Just one little perfect getaway. And I will enjoy it. Maybe I need to rent a car in Malaysia and just drive. Drive to wherever my heart feels like it. I just wish I can do that. Get my own perfect weekend alone. Sort my thoughts out. Enjoy the nature. Have peach with my mind. Not having problems falling asleep. 

How come when a character from a drama say stuff like that I think it's adorable? Some things must be wrong with me. I'm so weird I'm giving up on myself. I change my mind like million times a day. Ugh. Regretting some very important decisions right now.

I'm so emotional. I wish for your safety. Things are not really looking good right now but let's wait for official news. Please release the news asap, we are all worried. Survivors, stay strong.