When do you even know when to give up? Sometimes, those small little things that just give you even more hope. Even if it's just those tiny hope, you help on to it. Cause you believe that things will get better from then on.
'It's not the end until it ends. But for game that doesn't have any ending, I need to end it myself.'
'Because I feel lonely, then I miss her. Because I miss her, I felt even lonelier.'
Sigh.
There's just no end to it right?
At times you tell yourself it'll be fine, you'll get over it. But it's not that easy isn't it? There are reasons why we felt that way. Especially me, I'm more to the stubborn side. So it takes way longer. You can fool others, but can you fool yourself? You can pretend in front of others, but how to pretend when you are feeling it? It's not easy. Maybe it'll get easier. But it's also possible that it'll get harder. One step forward is better than just staying still they say. But...sometimes you are willing to stand still, to stay the same way you are, to just stubbornly believing in what you want to believe.

Today, more than others, I think I miss you more.