Ugh, I have so many things to tell you about GDA. But I'm super lazy to type now. And it's really late? haha. So ciao. Tomorrow I hope. AND just wanna say, 2013 have been a good year so far. :)

Just when I start telling myself stop be super irrational and delusional, you just have make a comeback and be super hawt in all those pictures. My heart, my feelings. Why do you have to be so hot? ;( And that sudden selca. So asdfghjkl, adorable! Just complete my day even more! I spent the day very well yesterday! Haha. You are being mean. Why you have to looks super adorable and cute? I really need to start being rational! Ugh. I miss you. Your hair. Your stare. Your awkward dancing. 오 마이 갓! Drooling! They say people have like seven look-a-like in this world. Why can't I meet one then?! How perfect my life will be if I can meet a guy like you ㅠㅠ

This is what happen when I'm high on typing. Haha. So yeah, I'm finally gonna be eighteen this year. Like finally legal. Yeeeeeeha! I can finally legally watch all those 18+ movies, go to clubs or buy drinks. Not that I'm dying to do all of that, it's just nice to actually be legal to do all those stuff. But, the number one thing I'm most excited is donating blood. Weird isn't it? This was what actually came to my mind like the thing I really want to do when I'm finally eighteen. I want to actually be doing something that will save people lives. Rather than me being all guilty not giving anything to human race. I'm finally able to donate my blood. TEEHEE.

And weird things are happening now. It's like high school but worse? Ugh. I hate this feelings. And I just can't tell them upfront about it. I'm really sorry. But I just can't help it.

And maybe, just maybe, I'm really not good at actually letting people into my life. There are empty spots left behind but I don't have the urge to fill those with more awesome people who might actually care about me. I'm just not ready.

There are really lots of things I still want to say. But I guess I should stop here? And I've been re-watching movies and re-reading lyrics that I read or watched last time when I still did not actually understand all the feelings behind it. Now that I finally kind of grow up and understand those, just wow, some real deep feelings are conveyed there.

Anyway, night world. Have a sweet dream.

*I dreamt Kyu last night. TEEHEE.

And now I got a paper on Monday and I've been acting as if I'm on my holiday already. Like on my break. During the study week I've been doing stuff that makes me really lazy. Watching dramas, variety shows, shows, music videos, literally anything. There was once that I watch like 10 episodes of Running Man in one day. I was really really bored. Didn't even try to read anything. So yeah, I guess that will impact my results a lot. No preparations at all. I just hope my lecturers are not gonna read my blog, they are gonna give me a really low course marks then. I just don't get it, the assignments I did in like twelve hours time will probably score the same if I spent three weeks on it. One of my resolutions this year should be passing up an assignment earlier than the due date. Haha.

My mum was not really a hugger as long as I can remember. So actually having my mom to hug me a lot last year was really making me happy. Even this year I get to spend my very first day ever in 2013 with my mum. I was losing all hopes on actually celebrating it with anyone but my mom, siblings and some relatives came up here. WEEEEEEEEE. I was literally happy. Haha. And I spent the day with them shopping, going out, eating together, etc. Even the day before my paper. I, myself also felt that I really shopped a lot. I have these urges to just like change my whole closet. I don't know whether I'm losing myself or I'm just changing and that's all to it. I used to hate flowery and laces clothes, but now I find them really really pretty. Oh, girls and hormones. I got to watch my last and first fireworks too. I didn't expect the fireworks to be actually that pretty. I even recorded some. Gonna watch it again next year before the year end ;)

Late five days but I don't care, Happy New Year people. Wishing you all the best and hope all your wishes come true :D

You know how it's New Year and you're supposed to start fresh and pull yourself up and just begin with a new chapter in your life? Ugh. I have so much to say. Like literally a lot. But I'm really really lazy to type. Anyone wants to help me to type here? XD haha. Anyway, today's weather is just like my feelings. It was so sunny early in the morning. And it turns so gloomy at the end of the day. :( and of course, listening to sad Korean ballads is not gonna lift up my mood. Worse. I already miss my mum and siblings :( Ugh. I'm seriously getting sick of studying in Malaysia. Like seriously. Ughhhhhhhhhh. I miss my hometown. I wanna play. Maybe I will go to Singapore after my papers :) if only my brother is still there. It won't be fun without him. And shopping have been curing all the sadness and cravings I have :D TEEHEE.

Okay, I should calm down and start typing rationally. I've been really eager to type my ever first post on 2013. I know it's just like any other normal day for some people, but hey, if I want to be all excited for this day, let me be.

Well, to start off. I have a strong feeling I'm gonna repeat some of my subjects. Why? I literally have less spirit and motivation to study than what I had last semester. Previously, Debby, my super awesome cousin will always felt kind of guilty when she didn't study enough. And my kiasu-ness will wake up and force my hand to take some books and try to put information into my head. I don't really care much during my AUSMAT year and literally didn't care about it this 2012. I study even lesser without someone to 'watch' me here. Like super lazy. I finally understand why all those people in high school are super lazy. I finally get the feeling of 'heck this shit.' I don't even care when it's my finals. Or assignments. Or tests. That subjects is so lucky if I ever prepare like two days in advance. It's always last minute study and assignments. Even my friends get used to my habits XD I don't even care if I cannot finish reading all the chapters. Let alone all those untouched tutorials. I can even sleep ever so soundly not finishing my reading. Even when my paper are on 3pm, I tell myself to wake up in the morning and study but I ended up with telling myself, 'Nah. Two more hours of sleep will make your brain have more energy later.' I honestly don't know how I pass my semester 1. I never study, like really study. And no one believes me when I said I did not. Ugh. You know that feeling when you are telling nothing but the truth and people starts doubting you? Annoying. I want someone to come up to me and just like slap me across the face and scolds me. Like telling me to wake up and try to get a hold of my life before it becomes a habit or just give me inspiring stories. Or maybe just someone to help to find what I really want in life. Even in my (soon-to-be) second year of university, I still do not know what I want. Damn it.

So you know how I always make a list of resolutions and stuff? Last year was my first time making rational resolutions. My resolutions were watch at least hundred movies and read at least ten books. Although I was really keeping track during the beginning of the year, I don't care about it anymore after three months. But yeah, I guess I accomplish it right? So this year, I'm gonna just write a line or two each day that explain how I feel each day? Actually it's supposed to be things that makes me happy. Maybe I should write two papers each day. Haha. It has been pretty good now I'm in day five :) I also really wish I will be more hardworking. I can just keep being lazy. It has became a habit. Not a good one. So yeah, I'mma try to change it while I can. Maybe I should write down more resolutions.

And my aunties really love to tease about having boyfriend nowadays. Last time, when I really had a boyfriend, I was like no lah, no one wants me. Or when they asked where's your bf? I just try to shrug it off. Just trying to avoid it. Now to satisfy myself and also them, I just answer them 'Wait ah. He's in Korea now. Busy performing.' Or worse, I start telling them to pray so that I get a richie rich boyfriend and super nice to me as well. Well, this answer seems to make both parties happy. So, gonna keep answering like this.
Super long post. Teehee. I haven't even started on how my week has been and the countdown. Haha.