I'm procrastinating not to finish a report. Sigh.
I'm really tired of life. Idk why. Things have been really good lately in fact. A lot better. But I don't know why I feel like there's nothing to look forward to anymore. I'm just really weird right? :/ I'm tired of life. And I can really be annoying and clingy at times. Like really annoying too in general. But yeah, I'm annoyed of me being annoying. I can't really express my feelings. I can't really say out the stuff I should have said. There is this song that I have been playing on repeat for 15 times now. I really really love this song. I don't even know why. I can't even relate to everything for the lyrics, maybe 50%ish? Haha. So people, listen to Lily Allen - Littlest Thing. Probably one of my most favorite songs ever.
Especially : There's no one in the world that could replace you. 
Call me cheesy and stupid, but it's probably true. I can quotes way too many from that song. The lyric is just that good. Things that remind me of you. Idk why, I really need a good cry. But somehow I can't find a good trigger. I need a really sappy movie now. Haha. And more that ever, I'm starting to see there is no point in studying. Call me dumb, I know. Gosh, I don't know how many times I can put this song in repeat and will never get tired of it. This song is my top most played song XD Dreams oh dreams. And this song is actually a soundtrack for a movie, a pretty good one in my opinion :) Celeste and Jesse Forever! Or maybe, I'm the one with the weird taste? Be the judge. I thought I have dealt with these feelings. Boy, maybe I was wrong. Was that question the trigger for this? That was a very bad question to ask anyway.
And I just found out this thing, students cheat in exams. Like using google, passing notes, making cheat sheets, etc. I mean am I the only one who didn't do this? Honestly, I cheated like less than ten times throughout my studying times I think. Am I really stupid? I mean, if all students are allowed to cheat, what's the point of having a test then? I shouldn't be so stupid acting like a saint not cheating when everybody does. But I don't think I have the guts for it. There goes good marks. I don't even score well for assignments too. Fingers crossed so that I can pass these subjects. I have been doing really poorly.
I have been having a very unpleasant sleep. Like I can't fall asleep. I need to repair my biological clock. Cause it's making me tired, emotionally and physically. I'm asleep but also awake at the same time. I can't have one good night sleep. Like the kind of sleep where you don't wake up until you have to. I have this kind of sleep where if someone knocked on my door, I can hear it right away. Stupid brain is stupid.