Just because I want to procrastinate doing my lab report which is due tomorrow. Fml. Reports after reports and so many assignments not to forget mid terms and quizzes.
I think I have become very ugly recently. From the inside mainly. Like really ugly. I make a lot of small 'white' lies. But well, little by little it's gonna end up with a lot right? I have a lot of bad thoughts about others. Not only thinking I'm not good enough, now I think how someone is not good enough for someone else. I mean, who am I to judge? I have a lot of ill thoughts recently, like a lot more compare to what I have before. I think way way way too much too nowadays. Why is this happening? I hate myself for it. I hate myself for having all of these bad thoughts. I shouldn't be having all these thoughts at all. Not only those above, but there are more. I have become more judgmental, more snobby, more evil. Just bad in general. I hate having these thoughts. What made me have all of these? :( I want to stop having all of these bad thoughts about people. I don't want to be a snobby bitch. I have to distract my thoughts.
And I have been thinking less about you. Like really almost non existent in my thoughts. Seriously. Haha. This is a good change though :) and about me thinking too much, I used to analyze thing way too much. Now I get it. It's just like that. It's just a normal thing. I shouldn't be excited or reminded or thought that it's all about me. This is like one of the positive things that happen to my mind lately. There are a lot of bad things too though. :/
But lately, everything has been good. Like good fine good. Make sense? :D
You make me have those weird feeling on the pit of my stomach and put a smile on my face.

And to all the girls out there, you are beautiful. You just have to wait for the one that sees your true beauty. I don't think I have met my guy yet, but I'm pretty sure he's out there. Stop getting lost and find me!

On a side not, there is this guy whose grammar is so bad but I don't have the heart to tell him. I don't want to sound snobby and a know-it-all but that is basic English >< I want you to improve seriously, I am not pointing out your mistakes because I think I am better than you or anything. But I guess not everyone can take criticisms positively right? I for one, really love when people are correcting my grammar mistakes. I still have a lot of rooms to improve and now that I don't have any English subject, there is no once to correct my mistakes. Sad :( This is just confirming how weird I am right?